| 5 entries | | |  | | | | Its difficult life these days. | wrote | | | I always seem to have this heavy feeling in my chest as i think i dont really live life. I am acutely aware that i am getting old and i dont like it. I have taken to using bio oil to satev off the wrinkles and i feel that it is harder to do things i used to take as second nature. I feel that life is a young persons game and that i am too old for life and i am only 42 so much to look forward to. | | | | | Dope. | wrote | | | I smoked the dope and brought a little back with me when i got paid and returned and the first time i was there i bought a lacoste shirt and a watch for 5 euros. I plan on returning but i am thinking ofd going to france first as i speak a little bit of french and want to brush up on my french language skills. I like travelling although i find it stressfull to be the oldest one in the hostels as i feel so out of place but i cant afford the b and bs but i might save up next time for my trip. | | | | | Travelling. | wrote | | | It made me want to travel more so i went to holland where i stayed in a hostel but all the people there were younger than me as they were about 18, 19, 20 and i was 42 so i felt out of place so i stayed out sitting about in parks all the time while they were in the hostel and only came in at night to sleep. The second time i went to holland i satyed in a park and just slept on the bench for a week. It was very relaxing but i was glad to get home when i got paid. | | | | | jerking off. | wrote | | | I gave up jerking off for a year and a half during the weird scenario and i went homeless travelling about aberdeen and edinburgh. I lived in princess street gardens during the festival and i slept in shorts and a t shirt and had a flag tied round my neck that hung down the back. Sometimes i would sleep under the flag but if i did it just got colder. I also slept in this wooded bit down this picturesque alley. I got more money during this period and built my money up to 1250 pounds. | | | | | Robots and ghosts. | wrote | | | I went through a weird scenario recently where beings were turning up at my house to mess my stuff up and steal things. Money would go missing from my bank account and 300 quid went missing one day and the statements i kept at my house would change to make it look like nothing went missing. I entered a parrallel universe where everyone was a robot and i became a robot myself. I started to vibrate and shudder and jerk about and i would adopt the body language of mates when i walked about. | | | | | 5 entries | | |
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